As I sit here, with my tormenting thoughts swarming in my head, all I can think about is killing myself and finally being released from all this pain. The way my life has gone downhill in these past few weeks is beyond me. I lived such a good life with my husband, Macbeth. Arguments here and there are no surprise in relationships but we were the definition of happily married.I was so content with my life and the way that it was going. Until.. my greed got in the way of my better judgment. Knowing that Macbeth could be king filled me with fantasizing ideas that didn't let me sleep at night. I knew that he would not have the courage to kill Duncan unless I questioned his manhood. "When you durst do it, then you were a man; And, to be more than what you were, you would be so much more the man." By saying these lines, I persuaded him to do the unforgivable for my selfish needs. I knew that I would not be at peace if Duncan was murdered but at that time, I ignored that fact and continued to push Macbeth until he caved in. When Macbeth went to kill Duncan, I was terrified inside. If anybody saw him, we would both be executed without anyone giving it a second thought. But I had to put up a brave face for my husband or else he would back out of the plan. When I saw him walk back with the murder weapons, I did not want to even touch them. I had to convince myself to go put them back because I knew if I didn't, we would be caught in a matter of seconds. I would have made Macbeth do it but I knew that he would find a way to mess that up also. After the murder, I started to see things, like blood on my hands, and I instantly knew this was the guilt creeping up on me. As days passed up, my guilty conscience was eating me alive and my mental state got worse with every passing day. I slowly deflated like a balloon under pressure. Now here I am, looking at my past mistakes, and I know if I could go back and change one thing, it would be my decision to kill Duncan. As I leave this world with remorse, I wish to gain some peace in heaven but I think the doors of hell are what I will be walking through.
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